Xylocopa caerulea (“Blue Carpenter bee”). Beautiful.
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Xylocopa caerulea (“Blue Carpenter bee”). Beautiful.
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So I got to sleep in until 11 30, which was really wonderous, and I spent the entire day just relaxing and photographing. Even though most of my photos where junk I feel oddly satisfied with the day.
Posted some of my pictures on my photoblog www.hidingbehindmycameralens.tumblr.com
I really miss Franklin.. I would probably miss him less if I knew when I was going to see him next. But at this point it seems like it will be forever so I’m feeling rather hopeless.
I’m going to try and get some legitimate sleep before tomorrow. Its going to be a long day…
I’ve been thinking a lot. A lot about Franklin, mostly trying to figure out if I’m doing the right thing.
But when I said I’ll always be looking for someone to spend the rest of my life with he looked at me like I was a little crazy. I mean it might not be you and it might not be the next guy I like, but I will never stop searching and I will never give up hope, even if you have.
Someone, cough Cambrie, told me that I obsess over boys. Too much, according to her. And I would just like to comment on that subject and say again, I am searching for my soul mate, I’d really like to meet him soon because I’m sure hes fantastic. And I obsess over everything. Boys are just a more common girl talk topic.
I also really like to debate if the fun and happiness is worth risking the hurt. The answer is usually yes, but I really like to consider it. I’m trying to stop considering so much and start just doing things without thinking through them a whole lot.
I am a man and I must be free.
But I really just need to let go and enjoy myself. It just seems like every time that happens I get hurt and its a fuckin mess. Breathes. Being alone a lot doesn’t help the not thinking about things thing.
I’m going to dedicate most of my spare time this summer to photography and just doing things and having fun. Fuck everything else like sleep and whatnot. But I’m going to carry my camera everywhere. Stop when I see something I like. Be spontaneous!
That is my goal.
Lets see how this goes:)
Starting tomorrow.
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